Some of my most painful hurts are of course from my childhood. Often I was treated differently with out knowing why. I’ve always tried my best to be kind and equal to others and yet even now as an adult I sometimes feel others treat me differently. I was the student that if the whole class was talking was called out by the teacher to stop talking! What is that??? Any ways that seems to still follow me and hopefully I can deal with it and let it go, and maybe I’m not really being treated differently, but seeing things from my limited view.Some of my deepest regrets go back to all the times I didn’t take the chance to witness to schoolmates. I also regret the church I grew up in as they didn’t challenge us to think of others nor did they teach us how to witness and share the good news. I thought well people will notice I’m different and that is my testimony. Not true. People did notice but I wasn’t equipped to take them any farther. So sad. But I do pray for those moments when I can share, even if it doesn’t get through to some one I know it’s a seed that will hopefully some day sprout. Lastly. What am I afraid of? I think one of my biggest fears are the getting to the end and realizing I wasted my life by always thinking only of my self and not noticing the world around me.

Your message reminds me of how uncomfortable it can be to be a Christ follower that is called to be different from the world if we don’t remember to see things from an eternal perspective. It is not always easy. In fact, most of the time it is not easy, but it the awesome thing is that Christ understands how we feel because people treated him as though he was an outcast.