The 3 ruts Christopher talks about in this chapter seem to tell the story of my life. I deal with all 3 on a daily basis. Self-pity is probably my worst. Having been a morally good christian kid, and growing up to just always be good has been my way of dealing with God. He wants so much more of me than to be ‘good’. I’ve found myself having pity parties like Job or some one, thinking I don’t deserve this. But really I’ve come to learn that’s life. Life happens and just because I don’t like it doesn’t give me the right to have a pity party.
5 things I need to do… take a shower, call some friends to try and have coffee and encourage them, be patient, clean the house, pray
5 things I should do… uhmmm. all of the above
5 things I want to do… do some photography, rest in God, read, learn something new, do some art
If I completed these things how would it change my relationships. Well, for one I might get the chance to encourage some friends who are struggling with life and just be there for them. If that’s one thing I’m good at it’s giving of my time and my ears just to be there for some one. If I took the time I would like to to pray… Who knows what could be shifted?
On a scale of 1-10 my problems are probably really low… like maybe a 4? that could be a bit generous. I know God has blessed me and I see that and thank him for it daily. I’ve found that any and every time I begin to think about my self and not others that it begins a down ward spiral into depression or negativity that I don’t want in my life. God showed this to me early this year and it truly has been what He continually has reminded me over and over this whole year.
